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S2 W3. Visiting

"I'm here for a 4:30 appointment please" I refused to look the nurse directly in the eye

"Can I have your health card ma'am" I dug it out from my purse and slid it to her. I hear her get at it with the keyboard as I studied a non existent something on the counter top... I felt dizzy. I guess I should have eaten on the train. "Ok....." the typing paused for a moment....I looked up for a bit. "You're all set, shouldn't be long" She slid the card back to me, but I felt her stare boring holes. "Er... are you ok Ma'am?"

"I will be I guess... thanks." I turned around quickly before she could ask any more questions.

Probably too quickly because...... I kinda ran into the floor.


I saw her falling. Just as I was entering, she was collapsing.

"OH SHIT!" I was there faster than  I realized, hopefully …

S2 W2. She's Here...

The old lady sitting opposite me on the train is creeping me out. Given I don't' look too healthy ( I tried to clean up  as best as I could, but for one this bird's nest on my head HAD to go...) but HO-LY.... this is just plain rude!  I didn't know I had lifted my hand to cover my belly until I felt it there. I looked down....I swear I could feel baby getting uncomfortable too by this "let's not blink" game the woman was playing here. I adjusted my sitting position so i angled away from her towards the window. Id rather look at blurring trees than into her criticizing blue eyes. It was just me and her in this seating set... there were about 6 or 7 of us in the  entire coach section, this means she had other  BETTER options for sitting, but no she chose to perch  in front of me and stare me down. SIIIIINNNCEEEE. I looked at my watch, 2:30. Sigh.... 1 more hour. We were scheduled back home for 3:30.... it was about a 20minute ride to the doctors then.... li…

S2 W1. Suni

The room was swirling and  my eyes weren't even open, but I could bet you, it was goingggg....I felt drunk. Like puking. What? I dont know. I hadn't eaten in.... 2days? but I had peed like I no woman's business.

I think its been about a month........................Ok, I need to get up now if i intend on not throwing up my already empty stomach unto the sheets... which by the way I need to change.

With all the energy in the world I open my eyes....yup. it IS spinning. I shut them tight again. Gosh I miss Yale. She would've babied me DIE. And I need that sooo much.  Whatever was left in my tummy started making its way up FAST, with a vengeance. I don't know where it came from, but I got some kind of energy like this and I bolted for the bathroom. Because this was a small motel, the bathroom was like.... right here. I emptied  my already empty stomach... it was mainly water and bile....gross.  

I collapsed on the floor beside the WC cause that's all I could do and j…

W20. And the world keeps on spinning.... (Season 1 Finale!)

I tried to act calm. "Mom, you  both are just being paranoid...Suni is fine. It's all this useless drama!"


We reached home, and I parked the car and just kept silent as we  got out mom's luggage and made our way to the front.So...if mom and De' knew then what? I wonder if they would support Suni's decision to ex the baby. Mom would probably not be in support, but with De's frame of mind... hmn.

I opened the door front door and waited for mom to enter. She went straight to the room.  Probably to change and get ready for bed. I locked the door behind me. My phone rang.

"Hey love." I liked endearments.

"Hey you.." Shafa and I said our hello's and made our routine small talk about each others day and how we were and all that good stuff. I mentioned that my mom was leaving tomorrow.

" soon."

"Drama is chasing her..." we both laughed.

"I should come over then,  I hope it's not too late."


W19. Psychic

I was smiling, for God knows what reason. This was not a smiling matter. But I was smiling, waiting for Suni to answer this blessing's to earth's question. He raised and eyebrow.

"Suni, he's not a mind reader...." I didn't even look at her. Hehe, not my fault my eyes were occupied.

"I think I'm pregnant." Something in the way she said it made me look at her. She looked defeated. I held her hand. But I also felt maybe I should let her

"Ok..." he dropped his pen in the little holder thing on his pad. "I'm assuming you've taken a home test-" She didn't even wait for him to finish the question.

"It could be false right, there's a..." she hung her head."there's a chance?"

Dr. Arinze was watching her really closely, like I was, he waited until she looked back at him "Let's find out..." he wrote some notes down.

I squeezed Suni's hand and smiled at her. I wanted her to not forget t…

W18. Plan B

I tried the door first. Locked.
Doorbell?................Doorbell?................................................No answer.
So I rang.

"Er..... I'm outside."

"Shit........are you serious? Ok I'm coming back now..."

"You don't have to rush, I can just go home and come back later.... in fact.. let's do that.. do what you need to do and when you get back.. gimme a shout."

"No, no.. I'm coming back, for real.. I'm already in the car" I heard shuffling in the background "For real, 5 minutes....."

"Ok..." I hope he remembers my pet peeve. Waiting.
At 5.1 minutes, I shall be ouddie. What's the time now sef?
Well, its been 6 minutes... I've even tried sef. I started making my way back to my car...and I have bigger fish to fry.

I got into my car and paused for a minute to think of my game plan.."Ok, go home...laundry....files for tomorro…

W17b. A Slight Change of Plans

Suni collapsed on the toilet. Tears were running down her face, but she wasn't even crying... I picked up the test and as much as I dreaded, but now expected. There was a there was an extra faded red line.

I really didn't know what to say. I hugged her as she...just sat. Me I started crying. God knows why tears started running down MY cheeks. I felt...weird. Some next level kind of mixture of feelings like this. Like I was happy, but sad, but confused, but scared, but feeling for Suni. I don't even know if she was happy or not.

We were in the stall for a bit. Another lady came into the washroom,saw us and.... left.

"Suni...stand up..." she was still silently crying..."Stand up...Let's go..." She didn't argue, she didn't agree. She just let me pull her up and we walked out. From the washroom, to the exit.

Screw breakfast.